this is the way it should be, light and dark, skin against skin, words returned. love holds grievances this morning. 

instead, silence, Saturn up there sneering. 

i want to write you a note, she said, the note will say: 

i want to write you a note, my fingers the ink, your body the paper. 

but your body is far away. i have no words, no metal blanket, no cold covering.

 

 

 

 

i take it back, i'd said, will endure suffering for intense love affair. 

remedy for a broken heart

dream series

 i dreamed i saw a shaman, a teacher, who gave me herbs to take for healing. we stayed in a village, surrounded by nature. i wonder if i'm being called to leave the city. 

repost art from 2016 - favorite. i live by this. 

best thing worst thing series

best thing: legs intertwined

worst thing: wishing things were different

raw, love; love dreams

from undetermined era probably 2019

letter to protectors
to my army

as babies, we are held in nurturance.*
as children, we explore freely, guided by the gates and padded walls of our elders' word.
as teens, we begin to see that we have agency and sight, opinion.
as young people we experience the freedom and responsibility of adulthood.
we find our paths. we study, work, play and rest.
as parents, we learn that our parents were exhausted, and exhilerated with the gift of ushering in a new being. the holding on, the letting go.
as business people we walk lightly, we express our needs, and understand how to move within our own boundaries.
in relationship, we see how we are seen.

i look at my life.

born of two strong, beautiful humans; they themselves born of strong, caring and hard working parents, and those before them, and on and on.

born into laughter. tall grasses. warm sand and cool waves. candy and bubble baths and music. pain and longing and learning to read, learning to draw, learning that it hurts when we don't receive the energy that is essential for our thriving.

we may witness abuse, we may be abused, neglected, or left alone.

as we heal, we begin to understand the power of acceptance. we know we can control our reactions, our responses. forgiveness.

everything we do is to give or to receive love.

our work is to remain in our light.

our work is to reach out for help when needed, to show up, to appreciate what's right in front of us, to rest, to play, to connect.

we dream.

you might think i'm crazy; all i want is you.

*trauma is healable. we must listen, allow the heart to feel; we need to cry, laugh, dance and sit quietly with our bodies. everything is given. all is healed.

best things worst things series

worst thing- anguish and grief and loneliness and needing more 

best thing: danny in his undies :) 

best thing series

it must've been love but it's over now; daddy cool and the paper clip and Church and money

dreams/thoughts series

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and pulling teeth out

are your thoughts true?