Tuesday, February 27, 2024

dream series

 i dreamed i saw a shaman, a teacher, who gave me herbs to take for healing. we stayed in a village, surrounded by nature. i wonder if i'm being called to leave the city. 

repost art from 2016 - favorite. i live by this. 



Wednesday, October 11, 2023

best thing worst thing series

best thing: legs intertwined

worst thing: wishing things were different




raw, love; love dreams

from undetermined era probably 2019

letter to protectors
to my army

as babies, we are held in nurturance.*
as children, we explore freely, guided by the gates and padded walls of our elders' word.
as teens, we begin to see that we have agency and sight, opinion.
as young people we experience the freedom and responsibility of adulthood.
we find our paths. we study, work, play and rest.
as parents, we learn that our parents were exhausted, and exhilerated with the gift of ushering in a new being. the holding on, the letting go.
as business people we walk lightly, we express our needs, and understand how to move within our own boundaries.
in relationship, we see how we are seen.

i look at my life.

born of two strong, beautiful humans; they themselves born of strong, caring and hard working parents, and those before them, and on and on.

born into laughter. tall grasses. warm sand and cool waves. candy and bubble baths and music. pain and longing and learning to read, learning to draw, learning that it hurts when we don't receive the energy that is essential for our thriving.

we may witness abuse, we may be abused, neglected, or left alone.

as we heal, we begin to understand the power of acceptance. we know we can control our reactions, our responses. forgiveness.

everything we do is to give or to receive love.

our work is to remain in our light.

our work is to reach out for help when needed, to show up, to appreciate what's right in front of us, to rest, to play, to connect.

we dream.

you might think i'm crazy; all i want is you.

*trauma is healable. we must listen, allow the heart to feel; we need to cry, laugh, dance and sit quietly with our bodies. everything is given. all is healed.




Monday, July 19, 2021

best things worst things series

worst thing- anguish and grief and loneliness and needing more 

best thing: danny in his undies :) 

Sunday, July 11, 2021

best thing series

it must've been love but it's over now; daddy cool and the paper clip and Church and money

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Thursday, May 2, 2019

can you feel it?

so many songs.
i dreamed of a spider crawling down by me, me trying to catch the silk to redirect it off of me. looked it up. create, create, create (medicine cards).
i can't believe its been a whole day. wtf. my mental state spun and spun and i'm exhausted.
and then... i dreamed of a very unsettled house. my room kept changing shape. i didn't know my housemate's name.
and then i made a playlist among them feel it by kate bush, everybody wants you original version, blame it on the boogie. #lovealways
fucking not mary poppins over here.