awake/dreaming
trust/deception
wet/dry
premeditated/accidental
parent/childless
sweet/sour
adequate/unacceptable
malleable/inflexible
creativity/stagnation, death
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you know when you wake with a story or theme? or a theme derived from a story? and it is distilled into words, but to extricate the nuance is more time consuming than you might allow that morning? so the symbolic meanings play out, and you do your best to stay legal and get to work, and stop to explain little by little. when you probably can't. and it doesn't matter. no one knows your heart, your fears, your soul like you do. love each other, love each other. listen, listen. we get to individuate, and we get to collect.
my 11 year old son woke up in the middle of the night, came and got me. i went to lay down lie down - i never remember that rule - with him.
ReplyDeletehe commented on new partner asleep in my bed. is he sleeping naked? yes, it's a warm night. 'i'm okay with that.' 'did you cuddle?' yes. but then i slept on my side, cause it's a warm night. 'okay.' 'mom? i spilled the water.' okay, it's just water, love.